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Blue Sky

In general, you're beautiful In general, you're special I used to crushing on all of your colour. Knowing each colour has it own story, and feeling. It takes time to me to understand, when the cloud taking over your beautiful, even i'ts not your favor. You're far, it takes time to me to not get mad with, the condition, the fact that.. you're really that far , sky. I can feel your emotion, when your rain is pouring. I just accepted that, i can't wipe out your tears, sky Sometimes, the wind just whispering to me, i write down the wrong notes. You don't know, maybe he's having fun out there? Sky, loving is like, giving all of your time to something that really faint. it's like pulling the lever. Hoping " happines" is what i get. But the possibility is, behind the door that losing his key. But you keep pulling it anyway. Sky, i never asked the feeling to leave the dining table that full of, my favourite food.  Your gaze just cloudy, giving the...
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i thought..

          Everyone describe love as something special, make them blind for a while and thinking about sweets even in the middle of toxic. Ofcouse i felt that, but you? i have no thougt. I'm an INJF. I was so confident with my ability to reads people minds. but, you? you're the hardest. You'd tell me, you felt the opposite of what i thougt you do. At that time, i was thinkin that..my feeling even gettin deeper..until, overthinking take away my control.           But i'm not gonna take a conclusions that, you're totally lost feeling to me. I DON"T UNDERSTAND. you said, "my feeling for you never change, it's just..we're in the different city, its hard for us". My analisys self cannot just sit there.          i tried to  convincing myself, maybe everyone have different way to show their love. Or, he just..hold back his feelin' you know? you'll don't know until you ask him in person. But your answer, to...
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what i've been prepare?

there's 5 months left, what i've been prepare? of course my mind getting louder time by time. Knowing that i was not putting my hard work offer everything i have to. This feeling started when i was a kid. I always get good grades, or reward, even i dont work for it. it's just happend. I can say that i just living among the people that did'nt had that much ambition. So do i. there's 5 months left, 17 is gettin closer. You don't have to tell me about the relation between hardwork and success. I've heard a lot about it. Fyi, i used an aliby to avoiding that. I said, "im a perfectionist, thats why i procrestinating a lot.", or "im an overthinker, that's why is harder to me to start somethin' new and hoping for good result". I was soo crazy thinking about, what if i being a loser? I am a loser. Having no brave to take a step. That's a loser. Having 5 months left, for celebrate the arrival of 17. Is like a fight to me, If i was havi...
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