i thought..

        Everyone describe love as something special, make them blind for a while and thinking about sweets even in the middle of toxic. Ofcouse i felt that, but you? i have no thougt. I'm an INJF. I was so confident with my ability to reads people minds. but, you? you're the hardest. You'd tell me, you felt the opposite of what i thougt you do. At that time, i was thinkin that..my feeling even gettin deeper..until, overthinking take away my control. 

        But i'm not gonna take a conclusions that, you're totally lost feeling to me. I DON"T UNDERSTAND. you said, "my feeling for you never change, it's just..we're in the different city, its hard for us". My analisys self cannot just sit there.

        i tried to convincing myself, maybe everyone have different way to show their love. Or, he just..hold back his feelin' you know? you'll don't know until you ask him in person. But your answer, totally make me even confused. Your words just soooo influenced me a lot. i have no doubt on that.

is he really have another way for loving? or, he even don't know where his love gone.

i thougt..

love was, when someone can't stop thinkin' bout someone, until they will lower their ego to ask them out.

i thouht.. 

love was, when somone willing to lowering their ego, and cannot wait for any text. No matter how busy, but the loved one always gonna be number one.

i thougt..

Love was, when someone agree that the loved one is more important than their hobby, even they told you they can't do a multitasking. they will try, even it's hard.

i thougt..

Love was, when the loved one gave them one question, they will gave it back two question. Cause love, was always linear with the curiouscity.

i thought..

Love was, when someone can't do something, but they would do it anyway to make them happy.

i thought..

Love was, always perfect..

If someone not showing you those action but told you that they loved you, would you even believe them?

What conclusion would you take?

1. They feeling just fade away

2. They just had another way to show their love?

i've ever take both, but..i think the feeling who get deeper its just mine, i felt like, drowning alone, even asked to you..its not helping.

Last words, i was very happy, you ever like, love, or crushing on me. You helped me find the special part of me, that i don't realized berfore. I will not pushing you, for what you're not comfortable to do, cause i still like you anyway.

the different this day just, it's invisible(i hope i dont break my own word)

for older hani, you're a silly lover!! you're so weak in front of your loved one..i hope, you can focus of what you want hani, cause feeling is something that you can control <3

I'm drowning too far, gotta start swimming to surface, bye!